My Story...

 My story...

It's real.  And it's mine.  And I have every right to talk about it.

I'm sorry if you are hurt by the things I am saying.  I can't keep protecting you at the expense of my well being. 

Its time I speak.  Its time I delve into these aches and these hurts so I can heal.  I can't keep my feelings quiet any longer.  I need to speak out, and its going to take time, but time is all we have, right?

I have to find my peace.  I have to find where I belong.  I have to be okay.  And its time to start now...

Maybe midlife crisis is real and that's what I'm feeling.

I feel lost, I feel like a failure, and I feel like I can't succeed anywhere.

I know these are lies that I tell myself, and in order to get past these lies, I have to put in the work.  This is just one of the things that I need to do.

I need to find something that I have joy in everyday.  I need to start doing things for me, that I might not like, but will make me feel better (hello exercise!).

There is no time like the present to start working on me...  so, please forgive me if I don't have time for the bullshit anymore. 

I don't need you to like me, I don't need to belong...  I need to have peace, and its time to start that self discovery, and I'll start it today.

Come along on this journey with me, let's find out where I'm supposed to be!